Hoping For A Starry Night

Today would have been my mother's 67th birthday. She has been gone since January 2007 and for some reason I have been finding her in my thoughts much more often during the past several weeks. Maybe it's because of it being her birth month or maybe it's just where I am in the process of it all, I don't know.

Life does have a way of just moving forward and it's easy to push things to the back of your mind in the everyday hustle and bustle of just getting by.
I think that I let myself grieve just enough when she passed and then I just got on with things. That seems to be what I do. I am a great listener, but not always so good at opening up about myself and my own feelings. It seems like only now am I really feeling the true feelings of loss and having these moments of just missing her. It's not entirely a sad thing though, in some ways it's almost a comfort to just feel the emotion of it; if that makes sense? I actually had a dream about her for the first time recently. I have always thought it was strange that I never dreamed about her after she passed. I don't really remember what the dream was about, but I remember that she was in it, and that it was nice. It felt peaceful. I miss you Mum...............      

"Perhaps they are not
stars in the sky,
but rather openings
where our loved ones
shine down
to let us know they
are happy." 

(Unknown)
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